Alcoholic husband

I think I need to leave him. He said he was going to quit drinking, but I'm now 8 months pregnant and he's still drinking and lying about it. I find bottles and I can tell by his behavior when he is. He's gotten angrier, meaner, more violent and. This month has been particularly bad and I find myself crying asking out loud what am I going to do. I'm not supposed to feel like this, like I don't want to even live. I'm scared every day and embarrassed because I know my neighbors can hear him say such awful things to me. I feel like I made such a bad decision in a man and now I'm going to be tied to him forever by this baby we both wanted. I just didn't expect to be a single mom. It just hurts so much because I do love him but I'm not sure if I'm in love with him because of all the pain. And I can't even hope that he'll get better and we will get back together. I don't want to put myself through more pain. It hurts thinking this, typing it but most of all living like this hurts.