after an ectopic pregnancy & a missed miscarriage

After 7 long years I finally decided to have my second child. I was so excited after a year of trying to finally get a positive result on a PT. Around 5 1/2 weeks , I found myself in the ER due to bleeding and cramping . I tried hard not to accept my bodies way of telling me that something was wrong . Dr told me it was too early to tell but from tests results I was still pretty much pregnant. Bleeding was off and on;  sometimes heavy as a period. On my 7th week ultrasound , the tech assistant tells me that she cannot tell me much , but to head to Emergency ASAP. In my mind I said ok. I'm misscarying . I was by myself , my husband couldn't come with me. On my 35 minute drive back home , I was devastated at the thought of losing my baby. Little did I know. ER attends me right away and I have just enough time to call my husband and explain what's going On. No one knew about my pregnancy. I was still waiting to tell my parents and me being in the hospital due to a pregnancy was not the way I wanted to tell anyone. Few minutes later , a DR shows up dressed and ready for surgery. She explains to me that the fetus was growing in my Fallopian tube and it was bursting .. it was only a matter of time to put that fetus (which was deformed completely) from causing anymore damage to my tube which can be fatal ...for me. I was shaking in tremor and crying like never before .  I have never had surgery, I lost my baby . It was 2 bombshells too many in one day. As I was getting rolled away my parents walked in. My husband explains what's happening because I couldn't talk .I receive their blessing before I disappeared into the halls. As the Drs are getting ready I was told to count to ten. By 5 I was waking up from the anesthesia. Confused and I felt a tightening in my throat. It was the most frightening thing . Dr had to remove my whole Fallopian tube . I read stories on how some women were never able to conceive again with just one tube or took them years get pregnant again.  As for me,  just 2 months later I find out I'm expecting again. This time, i was prepared for the worse . But you can never be too prepared for losing yet  another pregnancy. The fetus had stopped growing by 10 weeks and only measured 6 weeks when it had died . This time around, it was as hard to hear that for 4 weeks ... I was walking around thinking I was pregnant . But I was able to look at the positive side. I was in deed able to conceive again. Although I stopped trying. It was too painful to keep going through miscarriages mentally And physically. I put my faith in Gods hands and wait for my rainbow baby. Again 2 months later I got a positive test :). Months and months went by and It was still hard to believe that I was finally having my rainbow baby! Ultrasound showed a healthy baby girl who is now 10 months old  😊 and is my and her daddy's prized possession! It was a rough patch but the final outcome was indescribable! For you ladies that are going through the same situation , all I have to say is NEVER give up hope/faith. Whatever is meant to be it shall be. Be strong and always remember you can't have a rainbow without a little rain ❤️💚💛