So, we just finished our first cycle of
ivf. We haven't done anything else in terms of
iui or anything and we are going to the MGH fertility clinic and "seeing" a Dr there. MGH was amazing and so caring. They do all your testing upfront and dont do anything until they think they have figure out the problem. We ended up doing ivf with icsi. I took some
pregnancy test and they came back positive so I was starting to get excited but I had my beta on Sunday and found out im not pregnant. I really wish that they would take blue dye
pregnancy tests off the market. Sorry this is just a rant because I have been crying ever sense I got the news and my eyes are so puffy now. It feels like I lost a child even though I was never pregnant. I was so proud of my little 5 day blast. My husband has been amazing and is telling me all the right things but I hate the place I'm in right now and I need to get out of it but don't know how. When I think about it, all I ever wanted was to be a mom just like my mother. I think of her as supper mom. I was adopted when I was 2 because they couldn't have kids and I honstly feel that I was meant to be their child. I guess right now I just feel like I won't get that chance to be just like her. Ok.. enough.. thanks for listening lol (reading)
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