was your first or second labor easier?

Sarah • 27. Married. My son was born 2/22/16 and his little sister 7/5/17
Pregnant with our second child/ my first labor I had terrible back labor but somehow managed to make it through an unmedicated birth- I labored with my son for just 10 1/2 hours,.. I'm only like a month into this second pregnancy and I'm already terrified about the labor and delivery process 😭I'm
Not against the epidural but, would like to do without just because I have terrible anxiety and don't think I would do well not feeling in control, though
My other option is to just bear through the pain😩 did anybody have an easier second labor? Just curious if it might be easier...