anyone else friendless aside from your SO?

I have no friends and essentially only one family member. I'm going through a tough time right now mentally. I feel so overwhelmed and like I have so much on my plate. My anxiety has been through the roof. My fiancé has been dealing with a health issue the past couple of days and it's been hard on me, which I hate admitting. It feels selfish. He's just all I have so when he's unavailable for me to cuddle up to or talk to I realize how alone I really am. Anyone else have this issue? I'd love to make more friends and I try all the time with no luck...it's so hard to go through rough times with your SO when you have no one else. 😞 He's in so much pain and I'm trying to be strong for him and just be there and ignore my own mental war in my head. But that's so hard. I feel selfish and guilty for needing him right now. Sigh.