I been with my boyfriend 8 years, and before that we were bff on school. We wanted always similar things, we imagine ourselves traveling and almost everything together since we were friends (in that time with our respective exs bf/gfs). Now he even decide to study the same career so we can work in-house together.

The thing that been bothering for some time and recently kind of fuck things, is that he want to have everything, like EVERYTHING ready for even conceive the baby. When I was growing up, I saw the evolution of my home, maybe the baby won't have all luxury but I don't think he or she cares, I know I don't, I love my home, I saw it before, I appreciate the efforts of my parents.

The other point is, I always wanted to have my children young, like 23. But then I finished my career and everything at 24, so ok...I can now! Now I have 26...I'm already hating me, I wanted so bad to be a young mom, not being so far on age from my kids...

so...last fight was big, I thing is a very big deal, I want now, he says later, he wants to, but not now. He's the love of my life...and my best friend, but...is it worth waiting? I feel I've been waiting to long...I have the.idea of having one since I was 20, but maybe then was risky, now is not I think. Or I should move on...maybe go to a sperm bank or something...