I gave him all my love and attention , well every time we fight he calls me a loose ass hoe , a bad mom , a hoe all these things . And I cry every day . I do everything by my self he never has helped with our baby that is 1 month it's so hard to do it all alone so young ..I feel like my baby sees me crying I have thoughts of wanting to just kill my self and get it over with . I can't deal with it when he comes to see the baby he just says how he went to a party and that he has a "hickie" down there and always just trying to get me mad like I've done something bad .i just don't understand why I'm not loved .. I can't take care of a baby on my own I'm so scared . Is this depression ..? Or should I be feeling this way .