This is an incredibly difficult post to write. My husband and I were lucky and successful first cycle. BFP 9/22. Thrilled, excited - worked so hard to be so healthy, careful - and we were ready.  We felt ready for anything. Until last Monday, 11/7. I found out that I had a missed miscarriage. I was 10w4d and the baby stopped growing at 8w5d. I'm devastated. Trying to hang on, make sense of it all....had a D&C on 11/9. It's all so fresh and raw. I'm not even sure what I'm doing...but I will want to start again when I'm allowed. So I guess just looking for strength.