I started my period today, right on the dot of when I was supposed to. I usually do not have cramps, mood swings, or anything. I start and then 3 days later I'm done, and it was all rather uneventful.

But for some reason I am a soaking blubbering mess today. I'm cramping, my head hurts, I started bleeding heavily instead of the usual spot and increase, I'm sad, I'm angry, I'm tired, I'm craving sweets, I just want to be cuddled, my husband is at work all day, AND it's a stark reality check that this is another unsuccessful month. I think that might be the true reason I'm having such a hard time with this period... we've been ttc for over 3 years, and we've been to doctors, medications, I already have perfectly regular cycles, I already ovulate every month, I've had blood work, ultrasounds, scans... I just feel like it's so hopeless. I guess I'm just feeling broken and like I just want to never try again.