Hard to not get hopes up!

Sarah
Husband and I are on month 4 ttc. Was supposed to start period on Sunday Nov 13th but she hasn't showed yet. Took a test Monday and was negative right away. I'm not going to test again until this weekend (1 week late) I'm sick of testing and getting my hopes up. I'm praying my period doesn't start and I dread every time I go to the bathroom... I know she's going to sneak up on me. Conicidentaly I have a yearly gyno appointment on Monday so I'm praying that I can go in with a positive hpt. I've been praying so hard at night with my hands on my belly. 🙏🏼🙌🏼😔