I just want to cry

Danni
So fed up of this now 😓 when will it be my turn. We've been trying for 2 years now and it feels hopeless, every month it gets harder and harder to deal with AF coming. We have an appointment with the infertility clinic but not until January, we've already had some tests done and so far everything should be fine, so what's wrong with me, this is meant to be natural and easy, not like this. Something which is meant to be positive is becoming so negative 😓 (Haha, no pun intended there, but yeah, literally negative, time and time again). 
Yet again I got my hopes up this month, but as usual it's all in my head, d12po and a big fat negative on FRER. Thought I was okay, but since the morning have spent my time Googling the chance of it still being possible, and the answer is very very slim 😢😢😭 out again for another month. Just wanna go find a quiet corner to cry in, doesn't make concentrating on work very easy 😪