I keep seeing posts about orgasms and how good they feel, but I've never had one. Ever. I've tried just about everything that girls have suggested (fingering on my stomach, grinding against a pillow, using a shower head, etc) and none of it gets me anywhere close. I don't have a vibrator yet, so I've been using a toothbrush recently. It feels so intense that it scares me. It does feel good, but my brain is registering it as something that I need to get away from when it gets too intense. I suffer from anxiety, so that feeling of panic becomes all I know and I have no choice but to pull away or have a panic attack.

With my boyfriend, he tries his best but it's impossible for him to make me come if I can't make myself come. It's extremely frustrating and I've cried multiple times after sex/masturbation because I just can't get anywhere close. I've been trying to find a solution for nearly two years now.