so many emotions!

I'm having so many emotions right now! My man and I have been trying to convince our first child together for over 2 years now. And to find out that I'm having troubles with ovulation has been so hard on me. I've had test done taking medicine that makes me sick. He is into lifting weights and as long as I've known him he's been totally natural with it. Well today I found needles and something not labeled and I can not even look at him!! I'm hurt and sad that he is hiding this from me and I'm frustrated cause the effort to make a baby is for what?!?! I don't know how to approach him with this at all.....