I'm dumb

I know some people will bash me but I'm kindly asking please don't. I'm not perfect. In fact I'm weak and so used to being treated like I'm nothing I beg for the hand that hurts me to take me back.

I started dating him in may. He spoiled me. I figured this is real love. Then fights started then we were ok and then he would start criticizing my body. My tummy is too fat. You have a nice but. Need smaller boobs. You're too tall so don't wear heels. Don't eat that it'll go to your hips.

So I lost weight went to the gym to look good for him.

Well he dumped me a week and a half ago because he wanted to sleep with this other girl so he figured I'll just dump her right.

So they didn't work out 5 days after he dumped me and he came back to me all apologetic (Oh and he dumped me the day after I found out I wasn't pregnant we were worried and as soon as we found out I wasn't I thought we'd celebrate but instead I got dumped)

Anyways I took him back this past Sunday. He's like I love you I'm sorry I made a mistake and all this so I took him back and we slept together because he's all I've ever known and all I have. Used no protection he said I want to be with you forever and all that and now my vagina is very itchy. And before in our relationship it never itches and he was my first.

Plus I was ovulating.

I'm so low. I have no motivation. I love him I know he doesn't love me. I know if I'm pregnant he will end up leaving. I know if I'm not hell still leave at some point. I need some encouragement. Please don't bash 😢💔