I feel aweful and i really have no one to talk to that might understand. My baby brother called me yesterday and told me i was going to be an Aunt. And i want to bad to be happy for him but its really hard. For years they have been telling everyone they are waiting to have kids. I talk to my brother last month in depth about kids and when they will try. Same answer as all ways "were not ready and kids are too expensive" well poof,guess who is 3 months along. I so want to be happy for them but my husband and i have been together for 5 years and serioulsy been trying to concive for a while. Thats all i want to be is a mom and it just isnt happening yet. I feel horrible that i cant bring my self to be happy for them just yet.