HELP‼️ please I need someone to raise my spirits

My cycles are fairly irregular but ranging from (34-40 days) I got my first "blinking smiley" 7days ago and still no peak yet..for the past two days I've been having light cramps with the sammlest amount of brownish discharge ..just took another OPK and it's still blinking 😞😞😞 I'm beyond exhausted idk what else to do😔 
I started charting a little late so you there really isn't a pattern to notice any change ..I'm just so over it!!!