I finally left a verbally abusive controlling guy. It was very hard because I honestly loved him. I'm 21 weeks pregnant with twins. I cry every night because I don't get to get held or kissed or loved on or have companionship. I like attention pregnant or not. How do I get over him/not want him or want to talk to him? I'm lost I cant work or really do to much (very high risk) I'm working on myself to be happy but it's hard. Any advice? I tried just talking to male friends and I can't do it. I get so sad and depressed especially at night when I have to go to bed alone. He made so many promises and said I wouldn't have to do this alone. I'm so scared and lost I'm only 21... I want to be happy and loved....