Okay I lied

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All month I've been telling myself I don't care if AF comes to visit this month. I haven't been having any symptoms I usually have so I brushed it off for the past two weeks with maybe I didn't ovulate so yeah to my upcoming light period... Now the day before AF is due to arrive I'm thinking dammit you lied to yourself I hope that witch doesn't come and I get to have my wonderful little miracle.. Who am I kidding I freaking care.. Thanks for reading my insane rant had to tell someone who would understand