bad mom

Kaila
So I am 21 and due January 17th with my first baby, a little boy. Shortly after finding out we were pregnant my boyfriend lost his job and was out for a couple months. We already weren't doing the best financially & thought things were about to be looking up and then that happened. We only have one car that isn't super reliable because I was in an accident and we haven't been able to afford another car. He just recently got a new job and is doing good but we still aren't ahead and live paycheck to paycheck. My job doesn't pay a ton and there's obviously no point in looking for a new one when I won't be working much longer. We live in a one bedroom apartment and have our lease until the beginning of next year. We wanted to break it to get a bigger place but now we can't afford to do it after the job situation lasting as long as it did. I just feel like I'm disappointing him already and I'm going to be a shitty parent if I'm not already. I don't have a nursery for him, he's going to be living out of boxes for a couple months until we get our new place. It's coming so soon & I am no where near ready. All of his stuff is still in a closet not set up because I don't know where to put anything. I just get so sad when I see everyone else doing so good and has this amazing nursery and all this awesome baby stuff. Has anyone else been in this situation?