It's been almost 3 weeks and I'm still falling apart. I am a social worker and I'm doing my end of the month report and I just reached my log for November 8th the day the doctor told me my son nolonger had a heartbeat and I fell apart all over again. This is so hard l miss him so much and it's not fair. I wish things were different. I feel so lost. I can't do this. Why did my baby have to die what did I do wrong to deserve this.