I'm not against him watching porn, I watch it too, but there is no variety in what he watches (looked through the browser history looking for a recipe I lost when the laptop died lol) all he watches is petite blonde white women. And I'm not petite blonde or white, I'm basically the complete opposite chunky brunette first nations with brown eyes .. and it's got me feel really self conscious like I want to change myself.. we have been together for 4 years and he also cheated on me while I was pregnant with our first 3 years ago (for 4 months) with a skinny little blonde white lady.. thats clearly his preference I don't understand why he's with me, we have 3 kids together and I'm starting to think that's the only reason. :( our relationship isn't the greatest but it's not that terrible... since I seen the browser history I've felt really down I wish I could unsee it, it brought back a lot of feelings and memories from when he was cheating on me.

but maybe I'm just over thinking everything......