So im on cycle 8 ttc baby 3

To know some of you ladies been trying forever.

Some with health issues some perfectly healthy

I dont know if i can do this

Its killing me and to know it can me 1 more month or 1 more year is driving me insane

Im a planning mom ( i have two currently)

Everything is on schedule and we followed the schedule no ifs ands or buts

In a control freak

And TTC is totally out of my control and i hate it its my body yet i have no control

Im healthy same SO as my two other kids.. So its been done TWICE. We are just 24

I cant take this not knowing. I start nirsing scgool spring2018. And i want a my last before then

Ughh and i lay her with a big ass pad on as my body sheds last months failure out my body.