Over the years I have had tons of crushes on boys. Of course they didn't go anywhere because, well... They never knew who I was. Or simply, they weren't interested in me at all. Now I'm a quarter through my Senior year, and I never thought it would happen in High School, but I'm falling in love. Junior year was a bad year for me. I had to make new friends this year. I really opened up and I've actually been proud of myself. I started hanging out with one of my guy friends a lot more and his group. It turns out I'm the only girl with 6 other boys in this group. But it's kinda nice. They help toughen me up. They helped me come out of my shell some more. But my best guy friend's cousin is in this group. We started talking to each other at school about a month and a half ago. We eat lunch together and talk a lot now. Slowly I fell for him. But now, I'm realizing that this isn't just another crush. I truly like him. We've started hanging out of school quite a bit lately. It seems pretty special, but that could just be what I think. He invited me over for his birthday, and just Friday we went to see a movie together. We've been on a hike together, we watched movies at his house. I've been loving every moment I have with him. When I text him I get nervous. When I knock on his door, my heart skips a beat. When we sit on the couch together, so close, I feel like I belong. I've never felt like I have ever truly belonged somewhere. But I found my place. I feel like he likes me too. The way he looks at me and talks sometimes. His friend says that he does like me and that I should enjoy it. I'm just so scared. I don't want to mess anything up. He means so much to me. I absolutely love getting to spend time with him. 😊 After a day with him, I feel so giddy and I can't stop smiling. 😊 Sadly, he's leaving on the 30th of this month to go see his parents in Mexico.(He lives with his Aunt and Uncle) I would love to know what he thinks of me before he leaves. That way I'm not wondering all month long. Do you ladies have any ideas as to how I could bring it up in a subtle way? I'm pretty sure he likes me, he's given signs and his friend says he does. But sometimes just hearing it from someone else isn't quite reassuring. This is something just so big to me. Quite the new concept. Thank you for reading, ladies. ☺️