6 months pregnant , and I still feel disconnected . I feel her kicks and flips and every movement. I guess it's still not real yet to me. I know I want to be a mother , and I know I'm so blessed to be given this child. I just don't feel the realness of it yet and I feel so guilty about it. I think a lot has to do with no longer being on my medication for my moods, and I still feel the depression from trying for so long. I'm hoping the feeling will change, especially when I'm back on my meds and I have her in my arms.