So there's this guy I work with who came in on a conversation I was having with a women I work with, we were talking about how my husband and I are TTC and how we haven't had luck yet. well he tells us his wife has been nagging him for another baby (we are all old friends since even before we worked together so were pretty comfortable talking about this kind of thing) anyway, I attempting to be a good friend to his wife explain to him where she's coming from hopefully an outside influence would help him understand but NO he was standing pretty solid on "no more kids". I felt bad for his wife but then the conversation changes and I forgot all about it. until today, he comes in and says oh did I tell ya my wife is pregnant. My expression was one of terror like something bad had happened i quickly turned that expression into a fake smile and tell him aw congrats I'm so excited for you guys. then I remembered he didn't want anymore kids and I asked him about it he says I was mad a first but now I'm ok with it. I pretend it doesn't bother me all day, until I get home and of course break down. I want to be happy for his wife, she got what she wanted and then the part where I'm a bit angry comes over me; i think it came so easy to them. she was on birth control and missed a day A DAY and whoops an accident..... like really??? Ah freaking accident???? I've been trying for 2 years and she gets knocked up not even a month after bringing it up to her husband who tells her heck no to more kids AND she on birth control. This hurts why does this hurt I should be happy for them but I can't help but think why them what are they doing so right and What am I doing so wrong that God thinks I don't deserve a child, I'm in my 30s I had a miscarriage 6 years ago that still breaks my heart to this day I can't help but wonder when is it gonna be my turn why is something so easy for others seem so hard for me I just keep watching my friends have kids one after another.....😞