I tried to pretend like my sexual assault never happened because I just couldn't stand thinking about it anymore and I didn't feel supported by my very best friends. The man who assaulted me was our friend, so they made excuses for him and said I probably hinted that I wanted to be intimate with him because I was drinking, when in reality, I set very specific and clear boundaries and he crossed them while I was asleep. I've been dealing with social fall out since the man who assaulted me is in the same friend group as I am. I can't go out with my friends, I always have to find out if he'll be there and I've just been on a roller coaster of emotions since filing a police report and reporting my assault to my university. It's hard to feel like this is just the beginning and I'm afraid he won't be held responsible for anything. I just need help. I can't sleep even though I've been awake for 48 hours.