I just found out that I'm going to have Irish twins. My second baby is due just days after my daughter's first birthday. I'm trying so hard to get psyched, but it's been a struggle. I've been working on my body, which I can still do to some degree. I haven't even gotten the last of my daughter's hospital bills, and now we are doing this process all over again. We were actively avoiding pregnancy. I know this should be considered a blessing. I know there are women that would kill to be able to get pregnant like this, so it makes me feel guilty when I am so upset by this event. My baby will be loved, and they are already wanted. I just wasn't ready to be pregnant again. Upsides? Pregnancy boobs. I have missed them.