My husband asked me last night whether I was concerned for the our baby's health and the risk of gestational diabetes because of my weight. I told him no--I said that I eat fairly clean, I work out frequently, my labs are always normal and my bp is always low. I try to live a fairly healthy lifestyle, but weight has always been a struggle for me. He still said he was worried during to my "weight issues". I am currently 190. He did want me to lose weight before ttc (about 15lbs--which is my typical weight). However, we indulged a lot this summer/fall and I got pregnant before I took it off. Anyway, hearing him say that last night crushed me. I ended up crying silently for hours before falling asleep. I am trying everything in my power to live a healthy life for myself, my baby, and my husband. What he doesn't know/isn't acknowledge is that I switched out our cleaning supplies for green products, that I am buying beauty products sans "nasty", that I am making sure that I get the nutrients our baby needs, that I try to buy organic food when possible, that I'm researching and tracking it ALL. Hearing that my husband is concerned about our baby's health because of my body crushes me. He says that I'm being too sensitive, maybe I am. But it makes me feel like every food I eat, every work out that I miss will be somehow scrutinized. Worse off, it makes me feel like I'm already doing a "bad job" as a FTM, and I'm just getting started.