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Why is finding a job so hard? I know I don't have any experience and everyone wants someone with experience but no one wants to hire me 😞 I had one place that wanted to hire me and I had to go back but I had an interview the next day then I got sick and couldn't go in till this week and I got an email saying they filled the position 😣 I know that's probably my fault but ugh! It's so hard to find one especially one that's close to where I live. My boyfriend isn't making the pressure any better every time I don't get the job he gets all bothered with me and I can tell he's getting impatient. I know I need to get a job and make money to help with everything but it's hard. He acts like I'm not even trying and I'm not putting enough effort into it when I am, I mean I've never done this before I can't help being shy and confused when it comes to it. 😕 I feel so bad for not having a job yet cause I mean Im here living with him because he has the money and i have no money. The only money I'll be having is Christmas money my mom and aunt are sending me. I feel so bad that it's hard to find a job and I don't want to work at a couple of certain places but ughhhh 😞😣