Feeling so awkward right now

So I'm sitting here in a very nice theater on broadway. (NYC)  Place is getting packed and I'm sitting in the middle row on a damn date with my sugar daddy. Whose over 30 years older then I. I hate when he invites me to these shows. I feel all eyes one us. He looks like he can be my grandad lol. But I can't say no to these little dates with him. He gives me about $5,000 a month for rent and just to have. He got me my car and spoils me. And all I have to do is see him at least once a week. (Yes sex!) who would hand over that kind of cash with no sex lmfao. Now the room is filled with people waiting to see the Illusionists. Wishing I can make my self magically disappear. Thankfully we don't frequent the city together too much. Can't let anyone see me with this man. I've known him over 10 years but only have had this arrangement since 2013. Say why you want! I need the entertainment till curtains rise! 😑😖👴🏻👸🏽