first pregnancy and now missed abortion
I was over the moon when we discovered that we were pregnant.
After fifteen years of doctors telling me it was going to be hard to become pregnant (because of medical issues) I finally felt strong enough to take the leap. And finally it went so fast. Just three months after deciding we were going to "try" we were blessed and surprised by our pregnancy. I felt pregnant, had all the signs positive tests and I couldn't believe it. Until just over a week ago when we went in for our first ultrasound.
I was eager to see our baby and had thought of and ordered everything for our pregnancy announcement at Christmas.
I was wrapping gifts for the family, keeping it a secret from everybody close to us and silently my heart was jumping. Until that day. We went in. Had an ultrasound, I could already see it but the technician wanted to do a transvaginal echo. And there it was. Our baby, completely visible through ultrasound, but no heartbeat. I was shocked, couldn't stop crying I had never thought this would happen after everything we went through.
Today I had to go in for a ED. I gues that's what it is called in English.
I am emotional, my heart is broken in a way I have never felt before. All I want to do is scream and cry but
Nobody seems to understand. I get comments like "good thing you are young" and "you should try again in two weeks ". I just can't right now.
My
Beautiful baby and my grieve.. can't even think of trying again at this time.
How did any of you cope if this has happened to you? At this time my world feels like its crumbling down.
Comment
Add Comment
Let's Glow!
Achieve your health goals from period to parenting.
