Why am I so insecure..

Bailey

Me and my bf got into it tonight over a dress.. yes it's sad.

I gained some weight over the summer and don't feel as good in my body as i use to, and I went from being able to fit in my size 1 pants to barely getting it past my thighs, it's just that small tummy that pokes out and the whole jeans thing that gets me, it's nothing compared to people that could have it worse than me, but for some reason it effects me.

I asked if he liked it and he said "no who are you trying to look good for?" When he knows I have these slight issues that get to me, and I asked if I could wear it just to make me feel good and he just said "idc you don't listen anyways"

To me I just want to hear "I don't like it but if it makes you feel good go for it" or at least pretend to like the stupid dress to make me feel better idk why this bothers me so much and the fact after he says he doesn't like it, I suddenly feel hesitant to wear it.. I'm just sick of wearing jeans and a t shirt all the time .