I hate it all. 😢😢😢😢

I Hate line eyes. I hate evaps. I hate negatives. I hate missed/late AF's. I hate it all. I have been testing and testing and testing and still negatives. Of course I always make myself see something but I know in all reality there is absolutely nothing there. I hate torturing myself. I hate the fact that I'm sixteen days late and have no idea why. (When I'm never late) I hate the feeling I get every time I see just the control line. I just hate it all.

Thanks for letting me vent 😢