I feel bad

Vanessa • Mommy to two August beauties💕2016 & 2017💜
So hubby & I are pregnant with baby #2. Our daughter is going to be four months tmrw (bday Aug 20, 2016). My EDD for baby #2 is Aug 22, 2017. So the first thing I feel bad about is that he really wants a boy but I really want another girl. Idk if it's because he already has a 9 y/o boy with his high school girlfriend or I'm just being selfish. Second thing I feel bad about is that I was planning on throwing my daughter a huge 1st birthday but now that I'm pregnant & my EDD is literally two days after her birthday I feel like I'm not going to want to plan a huge birthday party at 9 months pregnant in August looking like a swollen whale. I really want to plan her birthday though. It's just overwhelming. AND I haven't even gone back to work yet. I'm still on maternity leave. I go back Jan 3rd like "hi I'm pregnant again !"😂😩😂😩