So me and my partner have been together for a while now and we use the withdrawal method but recently it's like I don't want him to pull out I want him to finish inside me It has happened once and I felt closer to him

The thought of getting pregnant dosnt scare me but he says he's not ready he doesn't want kids for at least another 2 years

He keeps asking me to get on birth control but I really don't want to it dosnt react well with my body as last time I was on it I got really depressed and hurt myself a lot

How do I approach this subject of wanting to feel closer on a more intense sexual way and not worry about what might happen but also ask him to respect my views and feelings without it ending up in an argument?

Just sometimes feels like he doesn't want to have kids with me and he's basing his experience with children on his last relationship as he brought up her child for 5 years "/ just don't know if I'm being silly or what