My baby will be a month on Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> and I decided I waited and contemplated long enough to tell my birthing experience. My due date was on November 23.  I had my last doctors visit on November 22, there my doctor checked to see if I was dilating yet and no I wasn't so we set up my date to get induced on the 29. On the morning of the 23 I woke up with what felt like a cramp but soon realize after having the same pain come several times after a period of time I was contracting, that was around 10:30 am. I started timing my contractions but they never seemed to be as constant, they were 8-20 minutes apart.  I think around 6pm I took a hot bath with salt for relaxing and it helped me ease and forget the pain, I would recommend this for someone who seems to be having a long labor. Around 9 we decided I should go to the emergency room and see how dilated I was, when we arrived at the hospital I decided to deliver I would say my contractions got closer ranging from 5-15 minutes, while there we waited for almost an hour and I never got checked or set up in the room, so we decided to go to another hospital because my pain was getting more intense. When we arrived there I immediately got set up and when they checked me I was 5 cm dilated 😱 throughout this whole time my boyfriend was not around, which wasn't what I expected but we were having problems, my mom and sister were there with me. I told him that morning it started and I feel I didn't get the reaction or any at all that I expected. He had to work that night and said that they would let him leave early if anything happened. He arrived at the hospital around 5 am which isn't even the normal time he gets out. While there we all tried sleeping somehow. I really did thought I could handle the pain but I asked for pain medicine through the IV 3 times. The first two helped me so much but for only 20-30 minutes when I got the third one I could still feel the pain so I knew that meant she was probably almost here. I remember having a strong feeling of pooping and out of no where I heard a click and I felt a warm rush of fluids, my water finally broke, I started getting the urge to push and more liquids came out. I kept telling the nurse I felt like pooping and she said wait for the doctor to check how dilated I was. When she checked I was 10 cm and they decided I should start pushing. I wanna say you'll know you have to push when you just can't stay still or in one spot for too long. I think I pushed but what seemed to be 10-15 minutes before the doctors decided to cut me, it honestly broke my heart because I thought I could do it but after that my baby was out in the next 2 pushes. It just breaks my heart that he wasn't as involved as I expected, while pregnant i decided I would only want me and him in the delivery room but after seeing how distant and unsupportive he was I'm so grateful for having my mom and sister there. I think pregnancy is such an emotional and beautiful thing but I felt so alone towards the second half of mine. Even after she was born I still thought he'll be there with me so when the nurse asked who would have the other pass to stay I said him but after leaving to get some things he decided that he was much more tired than I was and left me alone in the hospital. It was so hard for me to constantly get up while I'm bleeding and hurt down there to get my baby, several times I had blood run down my legs, but I was all alone and I cried so much that night reflecting how broken my relationship was he even said he tried to drag the time because he didn't wanna see the delivery. I probably slept one hour total that night after those 27 hours of labor which I didn't sleep through at all, the next day when I told my mom she said I should've given her the pass because i shouldn't have been alone and I agree. It just breaks my heart so much the way things happened, so I wanna say while you're pregnant know your support team and who will actually be there for you because it's such a tough and delicate time and if you know someone who's alone while pregnant be there for them. She was born at 1:33 pm, 8 lbs 9 ounces and 20.5 inches long. Julianna Rose 🌹 💞