anyone have a molar pregnancy?

Lissette
I had one and can't seem to find anyone else going through it. It's just a scary freak thing which essentially could've harmed us. It's so  rare...It's sometimes is a baby and sometimes just a tumor. I feel so alone in this where a part of me is relived I didn't have a baby at all but now I must wait a year to try again for health reasons. Another part of me wishes it was a baby and once I get my regular
Cycle I can try again. I'm confused but relived my life isn't on jeopardy. My emotions are everywhere