am I an idiot?

Hey guys! So I kind of need some advice about this boy and like where we stand...so I was hanging out with him and drinking with him, and we ended up having sex. The next day, he told me not to tell anyone because one of his friends has feelings for me, and he doesn't want his friend to be mad at him. He also said he didn't catch feelings and didn't want to lead me on. I said that's fine, and we didn't say much else about it. That whole week, he harassed me about whether I told anyone, made sure I was really on the pill because we didn't use a condom, wouldn't stop asking about it. Now I think this boy is so attractive, so I told him straight up that he was hot and I would do it again. He then went on a tangent about how depressed he is and how he wouldn't be going out for a while because of it. I didn't want to not believe him because that would be rude, but it seemed too coincidental that I said that and he didn't even acknowledge it and just started saying he was depressed and couldn't go out. He then said he would talk to me when he was "mentally ready." So the next weekend comes, and sure enough he's there. Me being drunk, I was very bold and talked to him for a lot of the night, as we had been snapchatting during the week despite how weird he was being. He's one of those people that are fun to talk to in person, but over messaging cannot hold a conversation and barely answer. So that night, I grabbed him by the arm and I dragged him off where we would be alone. I didn't quite yell at him but I wasn't talking nicely exactly either. I said "I don't know what the fuck you think I expect from you, I don't expect you to be my boyfriend or commit to me I just want to-" and at this point he leaned in and made out with me. We made out for a while then he said "my dad's gonna kill me I'll be back" but he didn't come back. I left the place I was at with my friends, and ran back into him. He kissed me goodbye, and we've been having casual conversation on and off since then. We exchanged pictures several nights ago, but it's like this off and on thing where he wants me, then he acts like nothing ever happened. Does anyone have advice as to what this means? Am I being stupid? Where I stand right now is if he didn't want to hook up anymore I'd be disappointed and my feelings would be hurt but like I'd get over it, but if he wanted to take this further and actually talk romantically I would want to do that. Any advice anyone has is much appreciated!