PLEASE HELP ME! Woman to woman lol

Usually I don't post on here but I literally have nobody else to talk to about this who isn't biased! Sorry it's so long.. All comments are welcomed.

So I was with this guy for 4 years, he was and is my first love.. We started "dating" when I was 14 and he was 12 (i know that sounds super weird lol) he moved away to Texas in the middle of our relationship so for the next 2 years we always had a long distance relationship. I would only see him once a year, around Christmas and New Years! He's an amazing man and I'll always love him no matter what. We basically raised each other because our parents weren't parents. We were all we had.... We ended up breaking up because when he got older he said that we were together for so long he never had the chance to be young and have fun and do whatever.. Which I understood, yea it hurt, but I have so much love and respect for him....

He's now 20 and I'm 21 (almost 22) .. He's 6'2 super muscular and a football player. I haven't seen him in almost 3 years! But his mom and dad moved back to our hometown so I finally had a chance to spend time with him! We're not dating or anything but we both know we love each other.. I told him I wanna take it slow this time since so much time had passed. The first night I saw him we only went out to eat and watched movies and talked.. But he did the cutest thing last night! He got us a hotel room and had flowers everywhere he ordered my favorite food and omg I just couldn't resist 😍 we had sex and it was magical, literally lol it felt like electricity was going through us every time he touched me..

He told me he would see me on New year's before he leaves again 😢 and he said that he would hit me up before I left.. Am I taking the "I'll HIT YOU UP" too seriously? I don't wanna annoy him but I really wanna talk to him and I miss him.. And I'm starting to feel like a hoe because we had sex and I don't know if he has a girlfriend or if he's had sex with a lot of girls or anything... I don't want him to think of me that way.. It's been so long since we last seen each other I feel like I should've gotten to know the man he is now before having sex with him. And God he's a football player which scares me because I know girls are throwing themselves at him....