Another Earth Christmas

Carla • 43 years old, 1 late loss + 4 Mc = 5 years of sadness. Miracle baby May 5, 2018 ❤️
Hi all,
Just finished having a good cry over envisioning my baby boy, (who would have been 3 years old) loving Christmas. We lost him when I was 4 mos pregnant, and have had 3 early losses after him. Another baby-less Christmas.
I have no questions, no answers either. I just wanted someone to know I'm sad, and that in another Earth, this is a fun, toy joy filled Christmas with my babies. I feel like I'm in the wrong timeline, wishing I was in that other earth.