1 month olds sleeping schedule is driving me insane

Any judgment will just be deleted so don't waste your time. I have no clue what to do. I've tried everything. This baby is driving me nuts. She is a month old. I don't meant to sound terrible, but it's gotten to the point where having a baby isn't even enjoyable one bit to me anymore. Her sleeping schedule is killing me. She will absolutely not sleep. Yesterday she woke up at 5:00pm after being up all night and every hour, and did not go back to sleep until 8am the next morning, in which she would wake up every 15-20 minutes, no exaggerations, until 2:00pm. Then she finally slept ok for a very few hours. She will only sleep 3-5 hours at most a day and it's killing me. So many people tell me to try and keep her up and wake her up during the day, and it's just not possible. She will not wake up or stay up when I want her to. And when she is up, it's not even peaceful. She is ALWAYS fussing or crying. She just had a dr appointment and nothing is wrong with her at all, they said she's perfectly healthy. I've tried everything and I really am so drained. She hates her swing, being put in a boppy bassinet or bouncy. She's only peaceful or sleeps for hours straight when she's held. I have only found that she will sleep better and longer while in bed with me which I really don't want to cosleep or her to rely on that. Especially since my bed is a tiny twin sized bed and she turns in her sleep. I'm also doing it all on my own, my SO is in the navy and deployed for a year. I'm losing myself and I don't know what to do, I cry every single night and can't stop breaking down. I just want rest and for us to be in a normal sleeping schedule.