I feel so defeated...
My entire life I could imagine myself being a mom. I could imagine myself becoming pregnant and carrying this amazing child in me. But now I've realized that, though I still want a child so badly, I can't imagine myself getting pregnant anymore. After all the disappointing negative tests, it just seems so far out of reach. Like I've been fooling myself all these years.
Like so many of you, I have this mix emotion of happiness and hatred for those around me who are pregnant. I want to body slam every person who tells my husband and me to "get pregnant already" I want to rip the hair out of every ignorant woman who says "ooo...is something wrong with you?? We got pregnant our first try!"
I feel so deflated. I want to experience the joy of pregnancy. I want to raise a child that is my husbands and mine. I want it so so much. But now it feels like this weird fantasy. I can't even envision myself carrying a child anymore and that realization hurts so much on its own.
I don't know what to do...or if there even is anything to do.
We won't stop trying, that's for certain. But my heart just feels so shattered...
I know many of you lovely ladies can understand what I'm speaking about. And my heart goes out to all of you.
Any advice or encouragement during this time would be great!
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