so tired of trying. πŸ’”πŸ˜­

I hate that it's taking so long to get pregnant. 5 months ttc and still nothing. I was supposed to get my period on Dec 22 nd. She never came I'm 9 days late but the test are showing negative. If it's a negative I just wish af would come already. I guess that's what I get for getting my hopes up for nothing. I feel like such a failure to my Bf even though he comforts me and says I'm not. I know he gets excited too when I'm going to test. He holds his emotions in though while I cry my eyes out and my heart drops and breaks on the floor. I could tell though that he's sad inside but holds it in. He told me the other day his friend sent him a pic. The pic said "The people that are going to have a baby in 2017." His name was in it he then told me I hope we have me a baby boy. I think he got his hopes up right there. I couldn't help but cry because I blame it on myself that it's taking this long. What else could be the causes of missed periods?