So I got out of a very abusive relationship last February. With it being New Years <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> I've been reflecting. Reflect on the good times I've had this past year. The things I fought for, how it's shaped me to who I am today. I hear plenty that I'm this strong woman who overcame so much. I never felt like it and I still don't. But I start off my new year 3,000 miles away from where I called home my whole life. My children and I are still healing. We are better off without a doubt. But with the reflection of the past year I am still pained by the loss of the person I thought I would love forever. I've tried to date but I can't help but see every red flag in everyone and just give up. It's not even my ex who I miss, it's who he was when I fell in love with him. Am I just crazy for still mourning the love that I lost even though it was toxic? Have you ever gone through it and came through the other side with a man who proved all your previous experiences wrong?