Me and my husband have not been good lately. He cheated a few years ago. I forgave him Bc I loved him. But now I don't know if I still do. I mean I will always love him. But I don't love him love him. He still lies and hides things from me. When I find out of course I get upset but he acts like I'm wrong to feel the way I do. Almost as if I'm the one who fucked up. I feel like my heart isn't there. When we have sex it takes me forever to get in the mood. I have to think about other things to get turned on. These feelings frighten me Bc he's the only man I've been with since i was 18 I'm 24 now. At one point I loved him very much I'm not sure if I will ever get there again.