Basically I am not a "party" girl whatsoever. But I wanted to do something my boyfriend wanted to do since last year we spent it with my family. Well when we got to his friends apartment I was okay, a little nervous and uncomfortable but I was holding it together. 

This is where everything just goes downhill for me. This kid I use to go to school with is actually became friends with my boyfriends friends not too long ago. And he is not the type of person I would like to surround myself with. He came with his gf and they started smoking cigarettes. I have asthma so immediately it affected me. Then they started playing some drinking game, and I just started to feel so alone. My bf was there, but my anxiety had taken over and my heart started racing, I barely could breathe, so I had to get out of there before my full blown attack. My bf did follow me, and was trying to comfort me but my anxiety was pushing him away. The night ended up badly, but in the end we fixed things. It really sucks that my anxiety gets the way it does. Can anyone relate with their anxiety being crippling a lot of times?