Patience is not my strong suit

Good morning ladies!! Happy new year. I have been quiet till now reading your posts. I am second time mom due with my 2nd lil boy Jan. 20th. Ironically thats 10 days later then my last jan lo was due, he was born via emergency c section on Jan. 8th. Being my first one was the scariest moments of my life I find myself so apprehensive about delivery of #2. They claim I am a candidate for vbac. We shall see but honestly I am so anxious about the whole process I just want it over already. Obviously I want lil guy healthy, but I suck at the feeling of not knowing. Plus I dont wanna miss my other guys 3rd bday. He is my little man and I would be devastated if we couldnt celebrate him. Pic of my soon to be 3 yr old for attention. Anyone else dying fron anxiety of the unknown.