Please Help Me!!!

So I was feeling a little horny and decided to masturbate but I didn't want to do it with any porn and I couldn't cum, my pussy just got really wet and it felt okay but I didn't feel any built up emotion or that "oh my gosh!" feeling it was just me rubbing on my clit and fingering myself a little but even that was kind of hard because my Pussy was real closed up (tight). I'm scared because I feel like I can't cum without porn and I don't want to be dependent on porn to reach my orgasms.  I've even notice that when I'm having sex with my friend I can't cum either it feels really good and I moan a lot but I have never cum with him... I usually fake it by saying oh I'm gonna cum or I feel it don't stop but I think he's starting to notice that I'm not actually cumming... but when I masturbate with porn I cum after like 5 minutes I feel the build up, uncontrollable moaning, my body even jerks and I feel like I need to pee... any suggestions on how to cum without porn and with my friend or am I just doomed 🙍🏾🙍🏾🙍🏾