Rant 😠😠

Okay I live with my mom, we are in process of finding another place to move into. We have three kids, all under 4. Youngest is 8 months. And I've had it with my family. My grandma and mom complain if the kids make a mess, or kids get crumbs on the I bed or God forbid my spd child wants to eat with one of them and God forbid makes a mess because they're supposed to be adults and know better. Every time they do something they bitch about them. I've cleaned the whole house for a whole fucking week top to bottom clean since nobody else fucking cleans up after themselves, and the house looks great my grandma has been pissed off all day because the house is "dirty" DIRTY IS FUCKING COCK ROACHES AND RATS AND PILES OF TRASH ETC. THE LIVING ROOM IS SMALL AND FILLED WITH THEIR BLANKETS THEY SLEEP WITH AND SOME TOYS. I seriously hope to God we find an affordable three bedroom soon because I'll welcome the quiet peaceful life of just chasing three kids and not having my rude ass fucking family visit. I was trying to list out stuff we'd need for bathroom and kitchen your basics besides food. My grandma was like you need furniture in your house, I said yeah that comes last we've all got beds idgaf about a couch not that anybody will visit anyway. I just cannot take this shit, they're always negative even when it should be acceptable in a good condition etc they're negative. They're pissed off in the first place because I had kids and they didn't want grand kids. They always say " I hope you need a hysterectomy, then we don't have to worry about you being pregnant again" or "I really hope you reconsider cause you didn't need kids from the get go". And they based this off the fact I dealt with depression, and was misdiagnosed as bipolar. My first pregnancy they told my fiance how this was horrible and dangerous I was pregnant......My family has helped but I'm officially the black sheep because I have kids, two of my own and the the oldest was his from previous. I don't get invited anywhere. I'm just ready to be out on our own again.