please dont judge

im pregnant but i dont want this baby.Im in middle of divorcing my husband because he is extremely abusive he threw the xmas tree on me while he knew i was pregnant.Honestly i want nothing that is going to remind me of him not even the baby.I know its my baby and its so wrong and alot of u will be judging me but i dnt have money to get the abortion pill.Us there any way i can have natural miscarriage to bleed on my own.Plz dnt leave me any negetive comments as im hurting as it is. 
UPDATE: i cant do adoption because if i carry the baby for 9 months i wont be able to give my child up.